For three years Subconsciousmind worked on his second album "Gfühlsweid" which translates "meadow of feelings". The result is an exceptional album, that takes the listener to a fantastic trip to himself.
If you let it happen, this album gives you the chance to a extraordinary musical experience, that leads you into forgotten, hidden corners of your soul and into an encounter with your own inner world. It's music that wants to fulfill it's purpose independent from styles and categories: to give supporting help in the human's examination of himself and his feelings.
Subconsciousmind combines a strong and solid bass- and beatfoundation with beautiful, unintrusive melodies and sophisticated, interwoven, nested and partially wonderfully simple sounds. The whole album touches with it's singular game between tenderness and strength, reticence and intensity, the silent turning to inner spaces and an overwhelming, sparkling love of life.
- Coldness, 10:33, 140BPM
When I made this one I wanted to find out why some people make such cold and hard music. What came out is a song that expresses the lonelynees I feel when I listen to such music. The song became a bridge between this sort of music and my music. Often things that seem hard and cold turn out to be beautiful and vulnerable. Never judge a song before you listened to the whole one.
- Inner Struggle, 9:33, 143BPM
I like it very much. This was the hardest work, I worked it over and over. What am I struggling against? Finally I found out that there is no reason to struggle.
- On The Edge, 10:18, 140BPM
Some things, sometimes, for some, seem not big or important enough to mention. But little things still can sum up and one day break through the surface...
- Death Experience, 9:30, 143BPM
I made it within a week, dreamed how to arrange it and didn't change it till today. If you have ever lost somebody you loved, you'll know what this one is called like this.
- Mood Converter, 9:30, 143-145BPM
That's what it does when I listen to it. It took me a long time till I had the arrangement for this one.
- Childhood, 5:51, 143BPM
To me, being adult neither means to stop showing feelings nor to stop being playful. Keept the child in you. Don't become boring. (This one developed from "The strange one" on the album "unprofassional".)
- Spring Feelings, 6:57, 143BPM
The name says it all. The first song I made for this album
- Release, 10:03, 140BPM
If you don't know any further: release!
There are empty spaces on the CD to write in your own names to the songs.
Listeners reported that listening to the album in one go caused a very positive effect on their psyche because the album led them to hidden corners of their heart and soul which made them feel better in the end. Some even called it a "therapy without words". I suppose that to experience this, it is neccessairy to be a very open person who is willing to confront one self also with probably unwanted emotions or to listen to the album many many times till it finds a way in ones heart.
From a musical, emotional point of view this album is probably the best I have ever done and might ever do. I went as deep into my own subconscious as I could and brought up the most important feelings, experiences I have ever had. Sometimes I believe I can never make something this essential and personal again, since what I expressed on my album “gfuehlsweid” was accumulated over my whole life, at that point, of 26 years.
Today I have a different way to handle my emotions. I deal with them more regularily than I did before this album. As a consequence, an accumulation of such a mountain of feelings, which was essential input for the album, will probably not happen again.
This is the second SubConsciousMind album, it was created from 2000-2003. In order to finance the mastering and the final release there was a prerelease in 2003. The official commercial release was in 2005.
I highly appreciate any support. Spread the word, book me for a live act, recommend me to be booked or just send me some feedback or leave a comment bellow. You can also use the donate function on the right, even if it's just 5 Euro or so. So far I can't even cover the expenses for mastering or this website. Anything is appreciated. Since this album is available as physical CD you may consider to buy a beautiful original.
Surf the website while you are downloading. There is a lot to discover! :-)
You can for example listen and download my 2009 release too: Intermezzo Extended
Here some collected voices from forums, party reports, guestbook entrances, emails:
...subconsciousmind is in a class of his own. I don't know any other artist, who gives so much depth and emotion into the psy. a colorful trip through the human psyche, with all it's facing, from playful childhood to the pain of loss and the longing for higher things. the whole album sounds fresh and spontaneous. it's obvious, that the artist doesn't produce for the people on the dancefloor, but COMPOSES music. for me the creme de la creme, the beethoven of the psychedelic trance, so to speak. thanks raphael for this ingenious album...
(mysticalforum, June 04, translated from german)
...a really nice and special album. Wonderfully melodious and filled with emotion, you really hear in every single track that the music was made with heart and soul. I join deepe2r well’s statement: Beethoven of the psychedelic trance hits the nail on the head…
(mysticalforum, june 04, translated from german)
...the best I got to know this year, certainly! I agree to what deeper well wrote, there’s nothing more to say. A very talented musician, you can hear the light in his soul. Fiin (fine)..;)...
(mysticalforum, june 04, translated from german)
I personally like the structure, how subconciousmind plays the rhythm of the tracks, incomparably. I think you can hear that he gives a lot of time and love into his music. The whole live act had a very good frame. When I listen to his music I find the prove of what music can activate in a human being. The music touches the most hidden places in my heart and produces an incredible happiness…"
(report after the party “orodruin”, translated from german)
...as the night slowly became day a certain subconsciousmind stepped behind the levers and gave me with his devine sound one acoustical orgasm after the other, it still shivers gently down my spine when I think of it. My deepest respect to a human being who tickles such music out of his instuments…"
(report after the party “microdom”, translated from swissgerman)
...I hardly know any act who sets free such a warmth, that you almost forget to dance because of the dreaming…"
(in the guestbook of the subconscious website, translated trom german)
The album has been ignored by many people, but from those who didn't, the feedback was overwhelming. Many people said the album was too "personal", too "open", too "demanding" for the majority of the psychedelic trance audience, others just didn't like the involvement of emotions.
Some people pointed out technical flaws others found the songs too boring, long.
As for the technical flaws: A perfect technical production of "gfuehlsweid" would have needed musical changes in the songs, which would have influenced the expression in a way that was not tolerable for me. The intervowed structure of the sounds and the many layers of melodies are just the way I wanted it. This demands a lot of the speakers: Whereas it sounds as I wanted it on quality speakers, it sounds rather unsatisfying on cheap ones.
As for the "long" and "boring" songs. It is part of the plan that the listener is put into a kind of trance. The music works best if the listener completely loses control and track and doesn't know anymore where he has been. For that the songs sometimes need to be long.
Moreover some didn't understand why all songs are so different in style. They couldn't say the album is "full on" or "morning trance" or "progressive" or "night style" and didn't understand that the songs are only connected to each other by my personal style and the story told through emotions. So they were confused and said the album contained "no story" or just didn't like it, because it was not "their style" amongst the psy trance "substyles". I say: Open your mind and heart!
Major target while writing and porducing the songs was to express feelings as genuine and accurate as possible. Because of this to fit the style "psy trance" and to deliver a perfect, crystal- polished production was only second to me. Furthermore all songs were written for REAL live performances, which means no personal computer with software like cubase or logic was used. This is not usual in that genre and means to lose a lot of technical possibilities. But on the other hand I was able to play and heavily adapt the songs live according to the reactions of the audience and my own mood which I find absolutely essential for emotional music.
The following equipment has been used:
- Mixer: Yamaha 02R
- Synthesizers: Roland TB-303, Access Virus, Clavia Nord Modular, Roland SH-1000.
- Effects: 2 x Alesis MidiVerb 4, Digitech StudioQuad, Subconsciousmind self made.
- Sound processing: TC Electronics Finalizer, TL-Audio C1, SPL Tube Vitalizer MK2.
- Sequenzer and Sampler: Akai MPC-4000.
- Speakers: Dynaudio BM6A
- Computer Software: Wavelab with waves plugins and grm tools, for mastering and samples processing.
Someone who knows something about these machines can easily tell, that the problem of the setup is first of all that none of the effect units is able to produce decent reverbs and second that there is no mulittracker software or machine being used. The second makes it very difficult to perfectionize the arrangements.
Basically the MPC-4000 was playing loops with a length of approximately 16 Bars. Each song is based upon 5-10 such loops. The MPC-4000 plays the loops with all tracks on and I used the mixer to fade in and out elements of the songs and the "next loop function" to go to the next loop as soon as I want it. Furthermore, of course, I was tweaking the sounds live with the synthesizers. This way all my songs were arranged and manipulated live. Also for recording the CD there was no preprogramming possible. I had to record a song up to 50 times, till I had the perfect feeling of the song. Actually there is no difference between my live playing and what I did while recording for the album. Even more! During live performances I can usually get more feelings out of my songs than you can hear on the album, it depends the atmosphere and mood of the party.